Hay all! well just got back yesterday from adult camp and I must say it was different then I thought. First off there didn't seem to be much structure in what was going on. It seemed a lot more like a free for all, open ended and that was a little uncomfortable for me since I was expecting more of a separation for the men and women. I was hoping to be spending the week with just the women and yet found myself with the men and women and that was a disappointment.
I wanted to find myself a partner and saw that there were no singles event so I could not tell who was a couple and who was single. Everyone was together at everything and so there was no telling apart who was with who. So that again was disappointing.
Main it self was nice. Tall trees, the lake, the stars, nature itself was very open and beautiful. It was sunny most of the time and I swam in the lake as often as I could. I also did some other actives such as Broadway dancing, songwriting, and the ropes. All were nice and fun, but I still was having a difficult time being relaxed when there were way too many men around and not finding a woman that was single.
Did I mention I was the only woman from Chicago. The majority of the people there were from New York, Massachusetts, and the DC areas, so I felt even more unsure of finding someone. I did end up talking to a few partners and that was OK. At least I didn't get socked in the mouth for talking to someones partner.
At the end I saw that the whole point of the camp was not to find someone, but to just hang out as a community. I didn't get that till the end that no one was there to find anyone, just to be there. I still could not except that since my whole point of going was to find a partner and not succeeding in that I was just plain annoyed.
I had a plain ticket home, but went on the Amtrak train instead. It was very nice and relaxing after a frustrating week. The train past Boston, Upstate NY, Pennsylvania, Michigan, Indiana, and then Chicago. I needed that slow ride home so I can think about the week and how I could have used that time better. I could have made a friend, relaxed, do more of the activities, or something instead of focusing on something that was not there. A single woman. So here I am and I am not planing on going back any time soon. But maybe in the future I mite, just to see if I can change my tune about it and maybe just hang.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Going to camp
Well hi there anyone who is reading me. I am going to adult camp next week. What is an adult camp? Well for me it is meeting other adults at a very calm and fun setting. The setting being Main, calm being there are trees, lakes and activities. Yes there will be cabins, five to a cabin, food (breakfast, lunch, and dinner), evening dances and maybe some beer, but all in all the idea is to do activies together.
What are the activities? Well not sure yet, but I am sure they will be fun. I found this camp on-line believe it or not and what got my attention is that it is for adults. A camp for people in their 20's-50's. So I wonder what kind of activities there mite be? Maybe hiking, swimming, art, dancing, or boating.
I also understand that one does not have to do any of the activities. One can just relax and hang around Main. But then what would the point of doing the camp be if you are just there to hang. You pay money to have these activities available so why not do something.
I for one am looking to getting away from this nothing, mundane, boring routine I have of sending out now over five hundred resumes on line, walking all over the city, and staring at the TV. Everyone needs a change and this is mine.
So to end this one I will just ask : what do you do for fun? what do you do to distract yourself from the mundane life and routine?
What are the activities? Well not sure yet, but I am sure they will be fun. I found this camp on-line believe it or not and what got my attention is that it is for adults. A camp for people in their 20's-50's. So I wonder what kind of activities there mite be? Maybe hiking, swimming, art, dancing, or boating.
I also understand that one does not have to do any of the activities. One can just relax and hang around Main. But then what would the point of doing the camp be if you are just there to hang. You pay money to have these activities available so why not do something.
I for one am looking to getting away from this nothing, mundane, boring routine I have of sending out now over five hundred resumes on line, walking all over the city, and staring at the TV. Everyone needs a change and this is mine.
So to end this one I will just ask : what do you do for fun? what do you do to distract yourself from the mundane life and routine?
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Horoscopes are just silly
So every time I look at my horoscope in a newspaper, or online, I notice that it really never is applicable to what is going on in my life at the moment. It seems to think that I am in a relationship, or have a job, or kids, or traveling, but I am never in either.
So what is the point of horoscopes if what ever it says is meaningless. Maybe it is just guessing and who ever is writing these guesses has really nothing to back it. Just like going to those fortune tellers on the street and paying them twenty bucks just to hear a lie that, just like on line, or the newspaper, is a guess.
What is the point? Maybe they are just wishes (at least the positive ones are). Wishes that are out there so people can think it will happen and feel good. I just think it is silly to even bother with reading if you believe what it says and base your everyday around it.
They make movies on how horoscopes affect people's thinking and behavior, and games to encourage the idea that they are true and affective. And even celebrities seem to go for what they say and claim that they live their lives by it. (OK that last bit was a joke) But really I get frustrated with reading them.
Since at the moment nothing is really going on in my life that reading horoscopes seem to take up time in my day. I read them everyday and over focus on why it claims I should have a relationship, job, kids, money, travel when in reality I don't have any.
So I through this blog out into the void wondering if anybody even cares what I say on here. If they don't then I am just as content to put ideas out there to think about and ask ourselves. Why do we need horoscopes?
So what is the point of horoscopes if what ever it says is meaningless. Maybe it is just guessing and who ever is writing these guesses has really nothing to back it. Just like going to those fortune tellers on the street and paying them twenty bucks just to hear a lie that, just like on line, or the newspaper, is a guess.
What is the point? Maybe they are just wishes (at least the positive ones are). Wishes that are out there so people can think it will happen and feel good. I just think it is silly to even bother with reading if you believe what it says and base your everyday around it.
They make movies on how horoscopes affect people's thinking and behavior, and games to encourage the idea that they are true and affective. And even celebrities seem to go for what they say and claim that they live their lives by it. (OK that last bit was a joke) But really I get frustrated with reading them.
Since at the moment nothing is really going on in my life that reading horoscopes seem to take up time in my day. I read them everyday and over focus on why it claims I should have a relationship, job, kids, money, travel when in reality I don't have any.
So I through this blog out into the void wondering if anybody even cares what I say on here. If they don't then I am just as content to put ideas out there to think about and ask ourselves. Why do we need horoscopes?
Monday, August 10, 2009
The next day
Well here I am. Day two of blogging. I will try to come on here as often as I can, but maybe not everyday, I do want to have a life. Witch I guess I do. I have a great supportive family of my mom and step dad who help me financially and my dad who owns my apartment witch of cores helps me a great deal since that means no rent to pay. So I am not destitute, but I still can't afford to do a lot of things. The financial help is just enough to pay for basic stuff like the phone, the gym, and food. I really do miss being financially independent.
And my friends who invite me to go out here and there, and who chat with me on the phone for hours on end. I so do look forward to going out and being active, it is very easy to get really bored and depressed just sitting around cause you can't afford to do much more.
Did I say I am single? I am, and at this point a good thing since I only have me to support. I really can't afford to support anyone else, so that is a relief if you can call it that, but I do get lonly and wish I had a companion to take my focus off myself.
So to end this blog I would say I am in a good spot to find something to do that I like. What that is, even after all these months, I really don't know. I would do probably any kind of job as long at is pays something, or I gain experience from it.
And my friends who invite me to go out here and there, and who chat with me on the phone for hours on end. I so do look forward to going out and being active, it is very easy to get really bored and depressed just sitting around cause you can't afford to do much more.
Did I say I am single? I am, and at this point a good thing since I only have me to support. I really can't afford to support anyone else, so that is a relief if you can call it that, but I do get lonly and wish I had a companion to take my focus off myself.
So to end this blog I would say I am in a good spot to find something to do that I like. What that is, even after all these months, I really don't know. I would do probably any kind of job as long at is pays something, or I gain experience from it.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Welcome to my very, very first blog
Hi out there in web land! This is my very, very first actual blog!! I just saw Julie & Julia and I just thought what a wonderful idea. You see I have way too much time on my hands and I know I have a lot to say about lots of things that go on in my life and in the world, so why not just put my thoughts out there into the void.
So here it goes.
To start out with I have been out of work for a while now, no surprise since more than half of the people I know are out of work and it is tough. I am educated with two degrees in film and computers, but even with those it is not easy. I have send out resumes through CareerBuilder and craigslist and went personally to places and handed my resume straight to whoever I was told to give it to. It has now been months since I have gotten a reply from any of the places I gave my resume to.
So I try to keep busy with social activities, family, friends, and volunteer here and there, but I am use to working. I got a job right out of college and worked all through my twenties. I worked at film labs, archives, and retail places. I like feeling like I can do something and be useful. Now a days I try to gain what ever little experience I can with the volunteering. If you are curious I am in my mid thirties now.
My generation is feeling the pinch of what life might have been like for our grandparents during the Depression. Not that I think we are that deep in financial woes, but we are sure no longer in the Wall Street 80's were money kept flowing and jobs were everywhere. (at least that was my experience even though I was a kid during that time).
But like I said I was always able to find a job in doing something and I am frustrated and bored with waiting and waiting for anything. It is a struggle for everyone. It doesn't mater what religion, race, gender, or age you are everyone is feeling the affects of the economy fall.
They say there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have yet to see it.
So I sit here, mid thirties, unemployed with two degrees and wondering what can I do now. There has got to be hope out there somewhere and that is what I try to stick to. HOPE. Hope for a job, hope for a better life, hope for love, hope for all.
So here it goes.
To start out with I have been out of work for a while now, no surprise since more than half of the people I know are out of work and it is tough. I am educated with two degrees in film and computers, but even with those it is not easy. I have send out resumes through CareerBuilder and craigslist and went personally to places and handed my resume straight to whoever I was told to give it to. It has now been months since I have gotten a reply from any of the places I gave my resume to.
So I try to keep busy with social activities, family, friends, and volunteer here and there, but I am use to working. I got a job right out of college and worked all through my twenties. I worked at film labs, archives, and retail places. I like feeling like I can do something and be useful. Now a days I try to gain what ever little experience I can with the volunteering. If you are curious I am in my mid thirties now.
My generation is feeling the pinch of what life might have been like for our grandparents during the Depression. Not that I think we are that deep in financial woes, but we are sure no longer in the Wall Street 80's were money kept flowing and jobs were everywhere. (at least that was my experience even though I was a kid during that time).
But like I said I was always able to find a job in doing something and I am frustrated and bored with waiting and waiting for anything. It is a struggle for everyone. It doesn't mater what religion, race, gender, or age you are everyone is feeling the affects of the economy fall.
They say there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have yet to see it.
So I sit here, mid thirties, unemployed with two degrees and wondering what can I do now. There has got to be hope out there somewhere and that is what I try to stick to. HOPE. Hope for a job, hope for a better life, hope for love, hope for all.
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